I'm proud of how open I was in 2013, how much new life I let in and how much I risked for it all.
But this year, as "the countdown" approaches, I'm feeling differently. I've been thinking about what, exactly, it means to make a resolution. Many people make them on New Year's Eve, but I think the introspective among us are always resolving.
But what does that really mean?
I love versatile, yet powerful words like resolve. To have resolve means to be bold and courageous, steadfast and earnest. To exhibit willpower, intention, and purpose.
In medicine, to resolve means to heal.
"symptoms resolved after a median of four weeks"
When talking about something seen at a distance, to resolve means to turn into a different form when seen more clearly, to transform.
"the orange glow resolved itself into four lanterns"
"the firm aims to resolve problems within 30 days"
In musical arrangements, to resolve means to move from discord (confusing or harsh sounds) to concord (harmonious sounds). To, quite literally, move from chaos to harmony.
"the song resolves from dissonance to consonance near the very end"
When dealing with decisions, to resolve means to firmly choose a course of action.
In chemistry, it means separating something out to distinguish between its parts, or to make sense of something by putting it on a spectrum.
It can also mean placing a vote to express a formal opinion, or dispelling doubt by clearing away the inflammatory or unnecessary.
All of which feels a lot like what I need to be doing and being in the coming year.
Her eyes are light and clear
And fearless like Chicago winds in the winter time
And her hair is never quite in place
And the knees in her jeans have seen better days
And she's no beauty queen but you love her anyway
She's a wildewoman
Yeah, she'll only be bound by the things she chooses
Here's to resolution. 2014, we have our work cut out for us.